I went through the same thing my mother is narcissistic and my father was absent so I was mostly raised by my grandmother who passed away two years ago after I had twin boys. The anniversary of her death is next month and I’m starting to get PTSD. I realized that I do not know when I’m going through the grieving phase until I get emotional. I also have a a successful life so I think to myself why am I feeling like this ? But we’re human.